As a little girl, I remember I used to sit in my closet and journal in my Disney Pocahontas diary. The pages were lined and purple. The diary even came with a lock and key! Without fail I would lock away my thoughts, literally, and hide my diary in a far corner of the closet so none of my family members would ever discover it. In the mind of an 11-year-old me, I had a dramatic existence. My trusted journal contained the sordid details of my friends, my crushes, how much I disliked homework, and also how I coped with being bullied. I have a funny sounding name that most people hadn’t heard before. The hideous variations that kids would spew at me through the hallways at school and on the playground still invoke a sadness in my heart.
The point is that my diary contained everything I never wanted to share with anyone else. As a child I didn’t have a lot of close friends because my family had moved frequently through my formative years. That diary was the only constant in my life.
Over the years I continued journaling on and off. I never got into a steady habit until a few years ago when I started developing my mediumship practice. That’s when everything changed.
My strange experiences started showing up in patterns. Things happened in a way that I could sometimes anticipate them. The instincts I had naturally started being proven to me when I had a record to compare to.
Writing my goals, my affirmations, and drawing pictures within my journal helped me focus my thoughts so that I could one day start my mediumship business. It helped me get through a period of time that I was laid off for four months as well and no income was coming in except my unemployment insurance cheques. That was a devastating time, but my old friend – the journal – kept me sane and optimistic. And when I finally got offers for jobs, I would create pros and cons lists to see which I should accept and why.
Have you got a regular journaling practice? What kind of diary do you like to keep? Is it a pretty, leather-bound one? Or, do you prefer just a utilitarian exercise book? Tell me about your journaling practice, I’m very curious to know if you have a practice. If you don’t, why not?
One of the first things you learn when you are developing your mediumship and psychic abilities is how to meet your spirit guide. You are usually led through a relaxing, guided meditation in a darkened room where you are asked to calm your mind so that spirit has an easier time communicating with you. As long as you can easily go into a meditative or trance-like state, the quicker it’ll be to sense the presence of spirit.
The first time I spoke to my deceased paternal grandfather I was 12. I was dabbling in Ouija boards as a curious child. I always had an affinity towards the occult.
Ok, let me just state for the record how stupid it is for a child to come near a Ouija board. Have you seen the horror movies about spirit possession and demons somehow getting through the board? While all this might sound like superstitious gobbledy-gook, I will assert Ouija boards are not child’s play nor are they for adults either. You may or may not believe in any of this stuff. Please exercise caution and good judgement before messing with things you may not understand.
Returning to my story, I spoke to my paternal grandfather through the Ouija board. In short time, I realized that I didn’t even need the board to talk to him. I could do it anytime. We’d have conversations. Soon, an uncle passed away and I started chatting with my uncle. It was a lovely reunion and since both these people lived in India and my family lived in Canada, I didn’t know them in life. The connection was crisp after they passed on though! Unfortunately, I never really thought to speak to anyone else’s loved ones in spirit; I kept my gifts to myself until my early-30’s.
I had been going to psychic fairs and attended the Calgary First Spiritualist Church services in the 2000’s and was feeling a great pull towards developing my mediumship. I knew nothing about mediumship really, I just figured I should try it and see if I could open up my gifts more. In 2012, I began my journey and never looked back.
So, getting back to meeting my spirit guide, I did meet her in one of these meditations. I was a cocky first-timer because I was kicking ass at this meditation thing and this woman just popped up in my head and told me she was my spirit guide. A beautiful young woman, I assumed she died in her 30’s and came to me to offer her support and guidance. Her energy was pure love and understanding. She knew everything about me. “What is your name?” I asked. She responded, “Fiona.” I proceeded to call her Fiona for many months.
In another meditation, Fiona changed form. She became more like a fairy princess. This time I heard the name “Inonna”. Oh, that sounds a lot like Fiona. I just misheard it. Her energy was extremely powerful, goddess-like even. As a confident woman myself, I preferred this version of my spirit guide. She was extraordinarily wise and patient. Not only that, but I could tell she had some control over other spiritual beings as well because they would come to her for instructions and followed her orders. Forget princess, this woman was a queen!
Fast-forward several months, and I decided to Google Inonna. Who is this person? I was taking a long-shot into thinking I might figure out something about my spirit guide’s life. Well, Google came back with this suggestion: “Did you mean: Inanna?”
Inanna is the Sumerian goddess of love, sex, fertility, and warfare. Holy shit, I get a legit goddess as a spirit guide? I had heard of other mediums talking to ascended masters, but this was damn cool. You may have also heard of Ishtar, these names are interchangeable.
And I realized pretty quickly how much I suck at clairaudience.
There are the 5 “clairs” we deal with in mediumship:
Clairvoyance = clear sight
Clairaudience = clear hearing
Clairsentience = clear feeling
Clairgustance = clear taste
Clairallience = clear smell
Then there are the additional clairs that mediums also experience:
Claircognisance = clear knowing
Clairempathy = clear emotion
Clairangency = the ability to touch objects and perceive spirit through their possessions (also called psychometry)
Anyone who is considering developing their mediumship should be aware that not everyone is strong with every clair. My gifts are very biased towards clairvoyance and clairsentience, which is extremely common. I’ve had claircognisance show up from time to time, and I am very strong with psychometry. In any case, it doesn’t matter what clair works great for you, accept your gift as being your own and don’t pass judgement onto yourself if the rest don’t come soon or at all.
In conclusion, meeting your spirit guide is probably one of the coolest things you’ll ever do. Never mind the first name you hear, you may not have even heard it right. The point is that one should realize that they are always watched over by someone in the spirit realm and they are like our guardian angels who we can call on in times of need or advice. Let them help you and you will become a better person for it. And try Google for confirmation and research: you never know who you’ll meet on the otherside!